WHY.ARE.YOU.HERE

I had five minutes left.

I thought I could finish it before class and be okay.

This.

This is not okay.

This will never be okay.

Oh sweet salty Christ I can’t go to Ab. Psych. like this.

There are so many fucking feelings in me rn.

I want to puke and die.

I AM GOING TO PUKE AND DIE 8””D

SAA-KUN

Jintan.

Anaru.

Jintan.

Anaru.

Jintan.

Anar—

SO I FUCKING LOVE MY POSITION IN MY HOUSE

BECAUSE

I GET INTO A LOT OF SHOWS AND BOOKS THAT MY FAMILY DOESN’T

I LAUGH

I GET ANGRY

I CRY

BUT I HAVE TO DO ALL OF THIS IN MY ROOM

BECAUSE IF MY MOM SEES ME HAVING EVEN AN INKLING OF EMOTIONAL CHARGE TOWARDS A SHOW/BOOK/MOVIE SHE DOESN’T WATCH, SHE TELLS ME

“STOP OVERREACTING”

TONIGHT WAS THE SEASON FINALE OF DOWNTON ABBEY

SOMEBODY DIED, SOMEBODY I KNEW FROM WATCHING WITH HER A FEW TIMES

QUITE SUDDENLY

UNEXPECTEDLY

AND THAT’S HOW IT ENDED

SO MY MOM CALLS ME DOWN FREAKING THE FUCK OUT AND REWINDS IT FOR ME

I SHOW LITTLE TO NO REACTION

SHE FUCKING FLIPS A TABLE AT ME

“HOW CAN YOU NOT BE AFFECTED BY THIS?”

“YOU’RE COLD.”

“YOU JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND.”

I SWEAR TO GOD IF SHE BOTHERS ME AGAIN TONIGHT I CAN’T GUARANTEE HER SAFETY I REALLY FUCKING CAN’T

OKAY SO MY MOM LOVES JANE AUSTIN. PARTICULARLY PRIDE AND PREJUDICE. SHE LOVES IT SO MUCH SHE GOT HERSELF A LITTLE MINI-BOOK SO SHE COULD READ IT AT WORK. THE COVER’S REALLY PLAIN BUT SHE INSISTED ON WRAPPING IT IN PLAIN WHITE PAPER SO PRINTER INK WOULDN’T GET ON IT. I COMMENTED ON HOW BLAND THAT WAS AND SHE TOLD ME TO SPRUCE IT UP.

GUYS.

GUYS I DON’T

I DON’T THINK SHE REALIZES WHAT SHE’S DONE

SHE WON’T SEE IT UNTIL SHE GETS TO WORK AND DIGS IT OUT OF HER PURSE GUYS HELP SHE MIGHT KILL ME

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NO IT IS. SO DO IT.

YOU HO

1. WE WERE IN THE SAME CLASS FOR THREE YEARS STRAIGHT AND HE COULD DO REALLY GOOD IMPRESSIONS AND WHEN HE SMILED HIS WHOLE FACE SMILED AND HE HAS THE BRIGHTEST BROWN EYES AND FRECKLES AND CURLY HAIR AND SDLFKJA:LFJ:SLDFJS:DLGKJ
2. MY TEETH. FUCKING BRACES.
3. THE GRUDGE AND SLENDERMAN BECAUSE I HAVE EXCESSIVE PARANOIA
4. “COLORFUL MIND” BY BROKEN IRIS AWWWWWYEAAAAAA
5. SCHOOL TOMORROW
6. SITTING AT HOME ON HER COMPUTER TROLLING THE FUCK OUTTA ME
7. HA
8. HAHA
9. HAHAHA
10. EMILIO COME TO MY EMBRACE
11. YES ACTUALLY THANKS FOR ASKING
12. EMMY YOU SUCK
13. DROVE AROUND, DREW TOBY AND JARETH, WROTE APPLE_BLOOD
14. SLEEP AT A FRIENDS I CAN’T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME SOMEONE STAYED OVER AT OUR HOUSE EMMY I THINK IT WAS YOU AND THAT WAS A LONG ASS TIME AGO
15. ORIGINAL CAUSE I’M PLAIN
16. *SETS SELF ON FIRE*
17. SKIN?
18. IS THERE ANY OTHER KIND OF LIKING?
19. 
20. I THINK I’D NOTICE IF I WAS DRIFTING AT ALL ISN’T THAT WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU’RE A GHOST OR SOMETHING
21. I DON’T THINK SO
22. NOPE
23. TIRED
24. SNACKS AND ART REFERENCE BOOKS
25. 
26. MYSELF?
27. COKE PLEASE
28. I’D NEED AN EX TO ANSWER THAT
29. FIVE IN THE MORNING BECAUSE SAVVY
30. LITERALLY THREE MINUTES AGO
31. THIS
32. NOTHING REALLY I JUST GO WITH THE FLOW
33. YEAH
34. NOT ANYMORE
    
35. I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE
36. ORANGE
37. NO
38. I TOLD YOU JEANS DAMMIT DON’T MAKE ME REPEAT MYSELF
39. JOSEPH. OR ZELO. EITHER WOULD BE FUCKING GREAT.
40. I ALREADY TOLD YOU THIS
41. YOU’RE NOT ANNOYING OR STUPID OR USELESS OR ANY OF THE THINGS YOU THINK YOU ARE HERE HAVE SOME CANDY AND WE’LL WATCH DISNEY MOVIES ALL NIGHT
42. HISSES
43. ALREADY DONE IT SO NO
44. FUCK NO
45. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
46. ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING TIME THANKS NICE WAY TO END THAT